why tell me or decide what to do if you are not sure it can be done?
then 2 things crop up
time to do it is cut short
by a few hours
because of that
you rather send something to a destination
than send it by post
you dont even know how to get there
but insist on going, to find that place and deliver it
by the time you have finished doing that
time would have passed by
leaving a few minutes left
to what i had actually wanted to do
since knowing it
you still wanted
all i m afraid now
is that you will tell me
another day perhaps
BUT
there is no another day
becos this things will happen again and again
next time
unless you are really sure that what i want or you want to do is possible
then tell me
don make me look forward to it
and then tell me
its not possible to do it today,
do it another time
i want to do it another way, with others
then you come and tell me NO
because you don like it
but even down to every one in class does it in the first place
it makes me feel really out of place, different
why cant i?
my trust in you diminish very time
you break your promise
it really hurts
and you don even notice
scolding me if you see my black face
me sulking there
even then
i still swallow up you hurtful words
saying that i m a selfish person
want other people to sacrifice what they want
so i can get what i want
but really
all i want is a good fun afternoon
because
the next time,
would probably be a few months later
and then i will have no time
i dont understand why you dont understand your own ____
*is sacrificing all that i want good for you?or for everybody else? except me?
Tuesday, October 18, 2005;
the end
the end